My Gratitude To Shirdi Sai Baba

Anonymous devotee of Shirdi Sai from USA says : Sairam devotees, I sincerely lack words to describe what to pen down. I do not want to think and write something. I just want it to be flawless and let all the words come from deep bottom of my heart. I am being used as an instrument by our Sai. Sai, please keep me honest, simple, humble and fully devoted through my thoughts and words. Please will it.

I am also a part of the mahaparayan. Myself being selected in the MP is Baba’s leela because He selected me a month later and I was just waiting for His call. It is always true that not even a leaf or grass moves without His will. We devotees are so foolish and funny that we tend to think all is happening because of our doings and this creates a sense of ego, jealousy, pride, guilt, weakness. All is His will. We will not get it until we are favored with His timings.

I have realized that however you follow the same practices of worship for the similar problems in comparison to other devotees, the way He solves our problems in every individual’s case is different. You may be doing everything as other devotees are doing and when it does not get solved, you get hurt because your prayer is unanswered. Remember, His delays are not denials. He has inscrutable ways of solving the problems and it is beyond our human intellect.

I am also like you all who makes the similar interpretations. Being a Sai devotee, our best sadhana can be surrendering everything at His lotus feet – whether it be a joy or a sorrow, a pain or a pleasure. It is hard to surrender but let us try it. Let us give all our happiness, success, failures, weaknesses to Baba. Let us live in the present and sing the glory of Lord. Past is gone and the future is unknown. Let us live in the present because it is not an ordinary present, it is omnipresent. Our life is nothing but a love story between our Sai and us. Every person, every experience, every gift, every pain is sent to us for one and one reason only : To bring us back to Him. We have come from Him and we have to go back to Him. Life is nothing but a journey from humanity to divinity. We are just playing our roles as actors and the divine play is directed by our God. We are His puppets and He uses us as His instruments. Yes, we fail, we cry, we lose hope, we fall during our lives.

Life is rise and a fall. In the midst of the darkness, He lights the lamp of hope in our lives. However bad the moment is right now, it will go as it is like passing clouds. It may take time but things will be alright. I am illustrating all these on my personal experiences. I cry due to tremendous pain due to my poor health and I just hold on to Him. He comes and relieves my pain. I cry due to my stress and I get disoriented in my studies. He gives me a thought to organize and study in some other way. I get distracted and feel bad about some talks, there He gives me a thought and focuses on silence. I do not know how to balance my work. He gives me a thought to use a planner and calendar and prioritize my work. There are so many shortcomings in me. He is transforming me through His love.

Everything I do; I do it for Him. My life is nothing but a gratitude to Sai for His intense love towards me. The very presence of love for Sai in my heart is a sign of His love for me. Sai is the Doer and I am the seer. My prayer and request to Sai is to live through me, feel through me, act through me, and love unconditionally through me. When Sai is with us, we do not have to look for anything else. Let us hold on to His two virtues – Faith and Patience. May everyone in the world remain in peace and happiness.

Jai Sai Ram

Anonymous

So beautifully written, these deep words just illustrate how submerged are you in Baba and His love. Baba, no wonder You too go running on one call of Your earnest devotees for it’s the love that binds You and Your children. Yes Shraddha and Saburi the Gurumantra given to us by You takes us across this worldly ocean. Love You Deva, Jai Jai Ho Sai…!


Pooja Garg

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