An Unexplainable Peace Gathered Inside Me After Joining Mahaparayan

Anonymous Shirdi Sai Mahaparayan Devotee Says: Om Sai Ram! I kindly request to keep my details hidden and kindly post my experience anonymously without disclosing my name and other details.

I am a member of Mahaparayan and I want to share my experiences while reading Shri Sai Satcharitra. My sister has introduced me to this group and asked me to read the allotted chapters every Thursday. I have always admired Shri Sai Baba since childhood. I was also curious to read more about His life. I started reading the chapters every Thursday. Initially it was a normal reading for me just like we read about the life of any great Saint or just like we read the stories of God.But in the month of September 2019, I started facing issues in my personal and professional life. No matter how hard I was trying to control things, everything was falling apart. On the starting of October 2019, I experienced a very big loss in my life. I was in a very intense and committed relationship from the last 6 years. But suddenly that person decided to leave me.

I went into a state of deep depression and anxiety because of that. I was unable to accept what had happened to me. The condition became so worse that I started getting panic attacks and I was not able to sleep. No matter how hard I tried, I was not able to get a control over my thoughts.

I immediately rushed to a psychiatrist and discussed my situation. She gave me some sedative medicines to control my anxiety and panic attacks. I was very doubtful about taking them as I was scared that probably I will get dependent on them and that I may have to take them all my life. So when I came home I tried to sleep without taking the medicines. I closed my eyes and prayed to Lord Hanumanji and Shree Sai Baba for help. I started chanting Jai Hanuman, Jai Sai Ram in my mind.

I cannot express in words what I experienced after that. In sometime, I had a vision in my mind that I am somewhere up in the universe and Shree Sai Baba is sitting next to me. He placed His hand on my head and said “Kya ho gaya? Kyu ghabra rahe ho? Aao mere paas so jaao. Main tumhe sula deta hu (What happened? Why are you getting scared? Come to me and sleep. I will put you to sleep).” I honestly slept like a kid that day. When I woke up, it was a good 2-3 hours of sleep that I took. I thanked God and Shri Sai Baba for helping me in this situation.

After that I also took help of ancient healing therapy from one of my friends. This therapy is said to be used by all the saints and Gods. My friend told me that Jesus Christ, Lord Buddhha, Shri Sai Baba and all other saints cured millions of people with this therapy. From that day till today, I practice it almost every day. I am also reading the allotted chapters regularly.

But the support I started getting that day has not ended yet. Even today as well, if my mind is in a state of doubt or I start feeling sad again, I immediately get my answers by Shri Sai Baba from random sources. Either the chapter I read on that day has the answer to my doubts or sometimes when it’s not Thursday I get in such a situation that I coincidentally meet a random person who clears up my doubt.

Recently, I was in the washroom taking a shower. Suddenly these depressive thoughts started coming to my mind. I was about to burst into tears. But the moment I came out of the washroom, my father was watching Shirdi Shree Sai Baba on television. I stopped there itself and started watching it. The episode which was playing at that time matched my mental state completely. After watching it, I found my mind at peace.

Even after so many months, whenever I get trouble sleeping, I just chant and call Hanumanji and Shree Sai Baba for help. I experience the best sleep after that. The situations and problems of my life are not solved yet. I am still struggling to cope up with my personal and professional life. But I have gathered an unexplainable peace inside me.

I don’t get tensed or bothered with the hardships of life anymore. I am also very confident that the Lord will take me out of this ocean of miseries and will put me in a beautiful world of love, positivity and abundance.
Om Sai Ram!

Anonymous Sai Devotee