Anonymous Shirdi Sai Baba Devotee from India says: Namaste to you all. I am anonymous and I am member in MP-2 Diksha Sai. I want to wish you all the best for starting MP and all other spiritual ventures.
Lately due to my extreme situations I was turning depressed and and more atheistic. I was pious devotee of Gods since childhood especially of Baba. Due to my constant failure in CA exams and all evil spirit possessions I started losing faith on Gods and started hating myself. My life had been hell from 23-26 when I saw everyone reaching position and with great achievements and I was struggling with black magic constantly and evil spirit things on my body. Still today I get attacks and dreams and see those black magic experts in dreams saying they won’t let me be happy and all. I don’t understand why don’t they have life and all they want to disturb some kid to be happy!
I lost my interest and faith and I got much problem in VSP Naam Jaap of Lord Vishnu. I appreciate my captain Phurbha jee (you may have known who am I ) for not complaining to VSP Incharge and not removing me from the group. I was doing Naam Jaap forcefully as everything I was doing was not giving me relief and I was so broken doing prayers and everything but there had been no improvements.
Last night I was crying like hell and as I am very ill, I cleaned by room and I got severe pain in my hands. I have sciatica too so you can imagine I couldn’t even get up to close the doors. I searched for Uḍi everywhere but couldn’t get it. I got water that I gave to Baba Thursday (this was a matter of Friday ). As I couldn’t get up from bed I prayed “I don’t ask You to cure because it will lead me to cry more that You aren’t going to help me ever in this life. It’s just my faith that I do remember You in everything.” With cold heart I put the water on my head not even in hands or any sciatica area. When I woke up in the morning there was no pain ! It never happens to pinched nerves and days with over work! I hope I will get life like others someday. His ways are different but I am so surprised today! I never thought that I will have any experiences to post in Mahaparayan as I am going through so much that it’s almost impossible to get any miracles.
When we completely surrender to Baba He steps in and can solve all our problems within a second. We need to help Him cleanse our karmas by doing good deeds now onwards. He has billions of His children to look after equally so let us do our very little atleast all that is possible for us at our best to help Him to work upon us. Love You Deva. Jai Jai Ho Sai.
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